Moving Day

Sisters!!!! How are you doing??!! It has been a busy time for me. I mean I realized I come alive when the weather changes. Winter just seems to take its toll on me. Then living in the Sip these tornadoes and hurricanes that blow up and through this joint are something serious. The other night we had a bad storm and the tornado siren was going off all night. I don't think I have ever heard the siren until I moved here. The funny thing is I didn't lose my power, cable or internet. However, a couple of weeks before my internet was out for an entire week. It's a trip that we have to call the cable people to tell them we didn't have service for a week. Pimpin, yo system can cut my shit off at the drop of the dime but, this joint can't automatically credit me when I don't have service for an entire week. FOH!!! I don't get it.

This is my favorite month of the year. May is my birthday month. Yes I celebrate all 31 days. There are levels to this. I can start 3 days early or I can go into June up to 3 days if I have a bad day in May. I also don't subscribe to dual celebrations. So don't try to celebrate me and another person at the same time. I hate that shit. Also if my birthday was on a holiday I would celebrate my half birthday. I am not with the whole combining of the gifts unless its diamonds or a car. Seriously, my niece's birthday is in December and I always make sure she has two distinct celebrations. I guess as a child I knew my birthday was special and I have loved it my entire life. Next year I will be turning 50 years old and I am trying to figure out what I want to do to celebrate. I know how my friends are they will need a year to plan. LOL! Bae and I are the complete opposite about Birthdays. He doesn't celebrate his birthday. He believes everyday is his birthday and he is blessed to be able to do things for himself without waiting for a special day. I agree with him to a point. But, I am all about my birthday celebration. I do something everyday that I want to do in honor of my birthday. Sometimes its a big thing and sometimes its something small like getting a pedicure. Bae has obliged me in my celebration because as he likes to say "He ain't no dream killer". However, I think he is learning so much about who I am watching me this month. I have had friends get really upset with me and my birthday shenanigans which I have never understood. I mean why the hell does it bother you that I celebrate my own damn birthday for 31 days. My core group of friends are used to this and they either do the same for their birthday or have their own traditions.

This year like all the others I began to reflect on the last year of my life and I think about what stands out to me. Some of these things are life lessons...some are simply things I want to do better or different. I learned this year about what it means to move in silence. I have really been watching Jay Z and Beyonce do big things. We wake up and Bey has done it again dropped a whole album while we were sleep. They buy a whole damn country or something and we don't know nothing about it until it comes out in the news. I have learned to disclose the things I want people to know and be tight lipped about what I don't want people to know. The things is Queens.... sometimes people close to you are the main haters in your life. They will discourage you and they will kill your dream. I am learning not to give these folks ammo to use against me. Seriously, we talk shit about black folks who don't give back. Mr. Robert Smith pays off the student loans for 396 young black men and folks have something to say. What??!!! 40 million dollars worth of debt taken off the back of black men who will go out in the world fucking debt free with an education. I have worked in fundraising almost 20 years and I always hope a black person will drop a large donation to rival all of these other donations from folks who don't look like me. I mean lets get it together black folks and celebrate other black folks who are trying to teach others how to get a leg up in this world. Shit!! I am pissed off that black folks are locked up in jail for selling weed and now that it is legal no one who has a weed conviction can sell weed legally. There is always the loophole.

I am currently sitting in a haze of sage and incense. Candle burning and these healing rocks....head full of rollers. I am wearing leggings as pants breaking all of the rules!!! But, I have successfully made 49 trips around the Sun. The next move I have to make scares the shit out of me. It makes me wake up and spend the early mornings praying and crying and crying and praying. Sisters! I know sometimes we just want God to give us the easy route one time but, that is just not this. So for my Stunt Women of Purpose out there. For those of you who constantly do shit you are afraid to do. You face the damn Boogie Man and with goosebumps on yo arms you yell at that mother fucker and say "Move the fuck out my way!!!" "I have shit to do!!". ( If you really serious you can add a with YO Bitch Ass) For you who are reading this and yo eyes filled up with that water because you feel this in yo soul Sis!!! You got this!! You are one Badass!!! I have decided to punch myself in my chest and step out into the abyss. It's what I gotta do. I have to do what I gotta do. So if you are reading this and you have another transition in front of you. Suit up and don't forget those Big Girl Panties on. Maybe, He loves you Sis but he is just not courageous enough to jump with you....Jump anyway! Stop waiting for people to get they shit together. I mean do you have yo shit together....Hell Nah but you are going anyway. Apply for that job, house, car etc. AGAIN!!! Matter fact start packing yo shit up cuz we moving!!! Peace....Love.....and a glass of red wine!!!!