Girl Get yo Mental Health

Sisters! Today I had an appointment with my mental health provider. Let me just say if you are a black woman in these United States Sis you need a mental health provider. I mean we are always going through some trauma. The crazy thing is I was meeting with my therapist and talking about being triggered like white women talk about going to brunch. Now let me tell you I have been intimately acquainted with trauma as far back as I can remember....No need to go into all of that but, I just want to say we all have our shit that we need to deal with. Well I was talking to her about being triggered by an argument I had with a really close friend about Bill Cosby. I didn't tell her that I lost my shit and said, "I don't give a fuck about Bill Cosby I hope he rots in jail!!" My friend wanted me to talk about how he thought the last woman was lying. TF???!!!! I can't even wrap my brain around that type of crap.

I mean there has been so much stuff that has triggered me. Bill Cosby, R Kelly, our rapey President, and the entire #metoo movement. It is hard as hell to be a woman and especially hard to be a black woman. So I was telling this lady who I don't really like very much that I have had a hard month and a whole damn teary meltdown yesterday. I didn't even feel like I wanted to cry or scream I just said it so matter of fact. It made me think about how much stuff I have had to push aside, push down, get over or just pretend like it didn't ever happen to survive.

She asked me about coping skills and I could really write a book about that stuff. You see we black women have to figure out how to survive. Now that I am almost half a decade old, I understand the importance of taking care of one's mental health. So last night after a day of crying and feeling sorry for my damn self I drug my fat ass to Boot Camp. Now I need to say that Boot Camp is responsible for me losing close to thirty pounds and toning up many areas of my body. But it is still hard AF!!!

I work out with an MMA trainer and they keep it exactly one degree hotter than west hell. Not to mention I am already doing stuff that my body constantly asks me if I am crazy about. But, I sweat like 3 fully grown men stuck in a Toyota Corolla backseat with no air. It is kinda gross. Anyway I am sprinting and trying to breathe and sweating and cussing...Oh I cuss a lot in Boot Camp. My right knee has started to hurt and I am trying to push myself to finish the work out. Then all of a sudden a got a little burst of energy.

Ladies I go to the gym and I do 45 mins to an hour of cardio when I am not in Boot Camp. That work paid off for me. I was able to push past the pain and finish the workout. I say all of this to say that sometimes the things we go through that are hard and we feel like we won't survive it is the little things that we have done in the in between. Ladies maybe you feel like you can't make it another day in your situation but, you will be fine. "How the hell do you know Kymira?", you say. Because the things you have already been through are giving you the push to make it. You are standing on the shoulders of the awesome women who went before you. We are more than conquerors and we will make it! So sis take a bow, you are that bih!!! You have made it and you don't even look like what you been through. So treat yourself to a long hot bath and a nice glass of wine. Just know Rome wasn't built in a day and neither was Beyonce.