Creative Flow

This last week and a half have been extremely hard for me. I think it all has to do with the next level of greatness God is trying to move me too. I was talking to my best friend about a couple of things and I made this statement.....I then wrote it down. Why do we feel the need to be validated by people who have basically shit on us in the past? Why do we care so much about that co-worker who stole your intellectual property to make them look better? Then proceed to block your way to the next promotion.....Why do we care about these shady folks? Why do we want that ex husband or ex wife to see us shine? Why is it important to us to try to placate how others view our successes and failures? My thoughts on this have gone all over the place. Listen Sisters! Always stand up for yourself. Never let any man or woman tell you that you are not enough. You are definitely enough! When I was going through a very dark time after my divorce I told myself while laying in a pool of tears on my living room floor. "Kymira you will never ever in life let another man humiliate you and break you down like this." I was challenged on this last week. I must say that I still have that very same resolve but Sisters I have also grown. I have grown so much that I didn't even recognize my own growth. I no longer have to use anger as a way to invite people out of my life. But sometimes people get what they get cuz they play too damn much.

I have a different way I feel about ME! I know I am moving and making progress. See the tape started playing again. It played at my most vulnerable times. Friends I have been listening to James Baldwin and Quest Love. Creative Quest is the newest offering by Quest Love. He talks a lot about creativity. I am realizing my creative flow makes me so sensitive to the things going on in my life and those connected to me. I have felt like I was under attack by the enemy. What the fuck does he want? He wants my creation. Whether it is my next blog post, or what I am wearing when I wake up. He wants to stop my creative flow. He wants to stop the flow of positive energy meant to encourage, set free, heal and restore. See the enemy knows if he can frustrate you in your life, your relationship and/or your finances you will lose your creative focus and edge. Yes! I am speaking to you who have that project you stopped working on because you don't have the time. Sis today is the day pick it back up. Lose yourself in your creative flow. Whatever thing you have been given expand and expound on it.....Now is the time.

As I thought more about how I am learning to be a blogger. I hear this inner voice deep in my soul saying you have always been a blogger you just finally decided to activate that. I must offer Bae a thousand thank yous for that. He is truly the person who single handedly pushed me off the ledge. In my business and certainly in building my brand. When this gets hard I know someone is gonna ask me "Kymira is there a new blog post?" This is something I truly need. I have been waiting for one big break in a lot of ways and God is showing me there may never be one big break but, a hundred little steps forward. Some days this looks like hours in front of my computer. Then other days it is taking a nap because I am super tired. Since I moved from DC I have been missing a great vegan spot. I found a hidden gem today. It made me super happy. Find joy and celebration in the simple things. I know there are things in our lives that make us feel like we are failing at life. The thing is when we are obsessing about what it wrong we forget to receive the blessings in front of us. We miss out on that person God has strategically placed in our lives to help us through the hard things that are coming. We miss the love and care people want to shower upon us. Stop and smell the roses...stop and admire a wonderful work of art....Hell laugh until your stomach hurts. Just don't allow yourself to be stuck. Being stuck sucks! It really does. I have worn myself out so many times trying to convince others that I love them and I am worthy to receive the type of love I am giving out. But insecurity is still undefeated. You will burn your self out and they will find a million ways to make you feel like shit. So sometimes self preservation is the only way. I am learning so much about the past and how deep soul ties can be. Don't drag your past into your future. Let's keep some kindness and love for ourselves ladies.....Cheers to the weekend and creativity.